Hello all, a short personal reflection:
Over the last few weeks I have found myself getting swept away: my on going illness has reared its ugly head and I have been both scared and in denial (dashes off to ring the nurse as I promised BH I'd do it today...). On top of this, I have been told that my contract with work won't be renewed, so I have had to seriously think about my future.
While I have known for a while that the next step I want to take would be into teaching, our wonderful government stopped the Graduate Teaching Program route to the new Schools Direct. While I am sure it will be a better course, the information available about it has been slow coming and now I am in the process of trying to sort my application I have been hit by 'the fear'.
What do I do if I don't get on a course?
Is there another job I can see myself doing?
could we afford for me to go receive nothing but student loans for a year?
This has not been helped by the daunting task of having to write personal statements and navigating the long and sometimes complicated form (even BH didn't understand what information they are asking for at times).
At a time in life that I am excited about my future with the man of my dreams I also feel frozen by the fear of the unknown as my who working life is being pulled from under my feet.
